Anxiety

Let’s talk about anxiety.

Part of my journey has been admitting to myself what I have control over and what I don’t. For me, my anxiety manifests itself as irritability and impatience… and usually it’s with the people I love the most.

Growing up with a certain belief that worrying about things was somehow a “good” thing is hard to get over. I remember a quote in high school that said “As long as there are tests in school, there will be prayer in school.” I somehow believed that if it was important to me… I had to worry about it!

I remember vividly the moment that I decided that I needed to take some control over the situation. Ryan, Daliah and I were driving up in a blizzard to meet up with my parents for dinner. I don’t remember what the occasion was and why it was so important that we make it up there, but I was stressed, I felt like I couldn’t breath and I couldn’t pinpoint where it was coming from. All the logical reasons to feel the way I was feeling, were just not adding up. I had been seeing a therapist for a while (needed some serious help after Daliah was born). I literally went to the doctor as soon as I could to ask for help. Recognizing that you don’t have to just deal with the status quo – that we have the ability to make choices – is really powerful.

To anyone who experiences the trials of just being human, we are in this together!!